Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Relentlessly, time presses forward

Current song: Tears infection - Kaori

Christmas has finally hit, to those who celebrate this day; I wish you a happy day. To be honest the past month or so has seemed like 2 days, less, a day and a half seems more appropriate. Either one of two things have happened; time has gone by really fast or, I can't remember anything I did during this period cause bluntly I don't believe I've done anything worth remembering. I've done NOTHING. Absolutely nothing productive since my exams finished. Before I realize it, new year will arrive then comes the period where my brain starts functioning like a regular brain with the aid of school.

What's more is that today my parents head home, yep. Home to Vietnam for a month so... consequently I'm at home with my brothers for a month and occasionally my sister-in-law. I used to live like this more often, my parents sometimes vacated for as long as 4 month long periods a while back. I don't mind this lifestyle, no it isn't the healthiest live-style but i'd be damned to say it's the worse. You could call it a time period of independence, where I have to make my own choices and food doesn't magically appear on the dining table every night (thanks mom ^^).

There isn't much going on in my life right now as I said, my parents left for Vietnam so not much I can do is there? I'm partly looking forward to Summer-school, new experiences are always enjoyable even if they might be bad, who cares =P. I've been playing a lot of warcraft 3 recently, no not dota, but REAL men warcraft 3. I swear warcraft 3 used to be so much more fun when i was a newb and didn't know how to play. Now, yes it is still fun but it's also hard, very hard if I don't mind saying. So many mind games and such are involved, it's just mindblowing. Thinking about that alone makes you really not wanna play, but I stay, for some peculiar reason; I stay and i'll stay for awhile to come.
Following Chrono Trigger, I've picked up Chrono Cross on my PS1 Emulator. It's fun but the rom is slightly buggy which is troublesome at points. Anime has been same old, I've finished watching the second season of Higurashi no naku koro ni AKA Higurashi no naku koro ni KAI. I stand firm to having Higurashi on my list of top 5 animes. Acquaintances of mine have stated that Higurashi is multiple stories. In fact it isn't multiple stories, I can't go into much more detail than this without spoiling the entire thing for you, sorry! Please understand that I really hate spoilers, no i'll change that i despise of spoilers. If i have spoiled anything for you EVER, i sincerely apologize and will kick myself in the head if i find out I've spoiled something for you. (Seriously I will... kick myself in the head that is).

Since i've got nothing else to write off the top of my head, I'm gonna talk about 'Kyoto animation productions' aka KyoAni. Personally my favorite Anime making company in conjuction with 'Visual art's' and 'Key', these companies have managed to produce titles i adore. Air TV, Kanon 2006 and Clannad to name a few. The stories are gloomy, saturated deeply in sadness, stories which above all; incite emotion. All with a slight touch of fantasy. Not to pull you away from realism but to make things more intriguing. I'll say this again like i say countless times, I am no Film reviewer, I am no Anime critic, i'm just a random member of society expressing an opinion. These titles... leave my speechless, mind blowing to an extent. Most importantly leave me with many thoughts, which take countless hours to process and finally put to rest. Absolute masterpieces IMO.

Well I hope you enjoy my Christmas rant, it differs from all my other rants by a factor of zero.

Laters

Current Song: Yubikiri - Mai Kadowaki

Friday, December 21, 2007

Respect

Current Song: 夜を駆ける - スピッツ

The realization that it hasn't even been a day since my last post has come to me but I kinda have something on my mind and thought I would vent a little. Pass the time away while putting some rather deep thoughts to rest.

The initiation topic shall be respect.
Respect is an important thing, it determines how others interact with you and how you are able to interact with others. Before I go any further, I'd just like to add; I am no scientist, I am no social studier. I'm just somebody expressing his OWN opinion, nothing more.
I'll use another cliche' quote; "respect isn't handed to you, you have to work for respect". The way you treat others, the way you communicate with others ultimately determines how much people respect or alternatively disrespect you. I guess this also leads onwards to 'treat others how you wish to be treated'. I'll admit I'm not the nicest person in the world, I will insult you at almost every chance GIVEN that (i guess) show you respect. No, i will not go up to a random and start swearing at them but I will however swear and bag my friends a heap. Ultimately cause I believe it doesn't cause problems and it illustrates the exact person that I am. I mean, I can't tell when people genuinely like me or are just putting on a happy face for my sake, but i believe the people I socialize with genuinely like who i am, how i speak, how i react and all that.

Superiority is another thing i want to cover. Whether you have a better car than somebody, better computer or even better internet connection for that matter :P. Although I admit I do joke about this kind of thing often but I don't say I'm better than that person for abc reason. Ultimately I'm better than NOBODY and nobody is better than me. Everybody has their worth however some peoples worth is more valuable to some than it is to others which leads to the kinda friends you end up with or rather obtain in life. When I think about some of the garbage i'm sprouting out i feel like I'm contradicting myself as I do some of the stuff here that I'm saying not to. I guess I should change for the better.

Opinion is another thing I want to cover, yes, your opinion is 100% valid you're always entitled to it but the moment you start provoking people with snide remarks resulting in the outcome that you genuinely believe that your opinion is stronger or better than somebody else's then you again have crossed that line. I like to think I exercise a lot of self control in the sense I do onto others as i wish upon myself. But when somebody says xyz is better than abc, i'll live with it, it's your opinion, i understand however when you start saying "you have a poor opinion" or something similar to that I have to start exerting self-control, stopping myself from blurting out a remark along the lines of: YOU'RE A DICK, F%*K OFF!!
Honestly, what makes you think that your opinion is any better than mine? There is no basis for that and even though you're not directly saying "hehe my opinion is better than your's." When you abuse somebody's opinion you are automatically saying that their opinion is below yours.

This once again is some serious stuff I'm covering here. I think. I'm just ranting don't take it seriously. Just remember though don't go out of your way to make others feel bad, it ain't worth it.

I swear, sooooo many people that read this are gonna flame me. If not everybody =P.

Laters

Current Song: Venus Say - Buzy

che

Current song: Yowake Umare Kuru Shoujo - Takahashi Yoko

I've been getting quite a few inquiries regarding my score in my year 12 subject so i thought id post this image to prove my statement in an earlier post;
Do you see? I got 36 not 46, I have lied, i'm sorry but who wants to look bad to their peers. Afterwards I thought I'd come clean and yeah.

What happened between this post and my last post? I played DotA just a game and yeah i was with quite a few people that I know. Game mode being aremsp (all random, Easy mode, Shuffle players). I got Lycan, I got a positive score to say the least but a hero like Lycan (aka Banehollow i think) is fairly boring to play as all he can do is run opponents down and bite them to death, apart from that theres very little he can do to kill stuff. Of course 32% attack bonus for units around you is always imbalanced added with empower which is 70% if i;m not wrong and you got some mean ass biting dog to deal with. Readers probably don't understand what the hell I'm talking about and that's fine cause I don't care anymore =).

The other day I was playing a game of FFA in warcraft 3, FFA stand for 'free for all' where 4 players are put into a game randomly and its a case of last man standing. As much as I enjoy playing warcraft when a game takes over 2 hours to complete you really just wanna curse at people and hit stuff. I mean 2 hours for a damn game is just silly. At the very least I won, which kinda is a plus from the 2 hours spent, cant say the same for the other players though, staying for 2 hours just to lose is not fun at all.

Ill tell you readers a bit more about myself today with this picture:

These 2 people are heroes in my eyes even though you may not know who they are. These 2 are no other than Yoan Merlo and Jang Jae Ho respectively. Professional warcraft 3 players who get payed a salary to play the game. Although I don't think it's possible for a person of my caliber to reach the top level, i give out my respect to these fellas and many akin to these two as they make warcraft 3 so enjoyable for me that I don't think I'll ever give warcraft 3 up in all honesty.

This is another rather short post but oh well, two short posts back to back make up for a really long post 2 weeks waiting or something like that.

Later all~

Current Song: Tears Infection - Kaori

Soaked.

Current Song: Aozora - Yuria

It's been awhile since my last post, yes lazy being the primary reason also lack of interesting things to write. I got a request from a friend (i wouldn't call it a request, rather a point of advice for what to write in my posts in case i have nothing to write about). But seeing as though I did something today I guess i'll write the regular kinda stuff that you people come here to read. Today was a friend's birthdays, I kinda feel bad not giving him anything but I'm always strapped for cash and I realize an excuse is an excuse nonetheless but which ever way you cut it, I'm going to look cheap, buying a cheap gift or buying nothing at all. I guess I'm playing the "It's the thought that counts" card in this particular case.

This party however was exactly what I needed, as selfish as that is. It was a time to chill out with good friends relaxing doing stuff and overall blowing a few hours enjoyably. I really wish these events would happen more often as they are so much fun, I guess that's exactly what socializing is. My friend has a large house. My friend had an awesome birthday cake, I mean seriously rich chocolate cake which I reckon would have cost a decent sum of cash, although as I write this post I'm slightly annoyed as it's dinner time and I have absolutely no appetite for dinner. Probably end up getting a Big Mac meal at 9 PM or something just for the sake of it (today being an 'eat out' day and McDonalds being conveniently located). I don't regret eating cake regardless though, it was very tasty. Thank you friend whos name shall remain anonymous; I wish you a happy 17th B'day. Oh yeah, today I rode home in the relatively heavy rain, ending up soaked by rain for possibly the first time in my life, purposely for that matter. (hence the title of this post) I'm not one of those hooligans that get soaked in rain just for the hell of it. (You're cool but, NO... Just no...) The temperature was quite high so I won't have to worry about getting ill i believe. (Yes, I'm weak. Do I care? No.)

On to other less important matters, I got results for my year 12 subject which is quite important as it will help determine my enter score. (I've got a future too you know?) Contrary to the lives i've been spreading, I got a 36, yes 36. You guys must be surprised at how poorly I went. Yes I got 36, NOT 46 =P. Hehe, I'm happy with my record I suppose, I found out last years top scorer for this particular subject was 50, now I just cant beat that. I'm not a perfect student so that kinda crap is impossible for me. (No I'm not diligent not a single bit) Confirmation for summer school also arrived which is meh. I hope summer school is fun and educational. Educational mostly, i'm only doing summer school to hopefully obtain a slight advantage over my other peers which I just don't see happening.

I'm just really lazy these days and I don't wanna write any more, I'll probably make up for that with a post tomorrow.

Catch you readers later~

Current Song: Concordia - Kukui

Thursday, December 13, 2007

An event flag has been triggered! YAY!

Current Song: Musou Uta - Suara

I'm drained. Exhausted to my very core due to the events that went down today. Might I add, i'm also extremely broke =/. Today; Friday went to play badminton. I'll have to say it was meh, not even decent to my standards. It was very hot and we ended up using our time playing basketball. I'll admit now that I am one of the WORST basketballers' ever; period. I mean it's actually hard to suck as much as I do at something. Regardless of that I enjoy playing so much, I don't know why, I can get injured (which occurs often) and I tire like a bitch but it's just a joy to play. Might I add i foul a lot, wait let me change that. I foul FREQUENTLY, like almost every single ball will result me fouling. I can't dribble either (*dribble* *dribble* *STOLEN* *curse!*).

Again I ended my day with Bubblecup, if you dislike Bubblecup I will make it my business to NEVER interact with you again =). Bubblecup is just top tier! (Phil is going to fucking pay for this.) I believe I should really try some new flavors although green apple green tea just is so great. The reason for my Bubblecup fondness I reckon, would have to be because it's a light yet sweet drink. When I drink Bubblecup, it feels similar to downing some water, it doesn't leave me with the heavy feeling that is dropped upon me when soft drink/fizzy drinks are consumed. Regardless of the extreme costs involved with Bubblecup, I will continue to support this franchise for months and years to come.

After the excruciation which was the sport, the crew for the day decided trek back to the local Asian gathering zone and pass the time through chilling. Here we passed the time walking, through the market and stuff. I tried some new food, something called a Kruller, a fried bun with a rather pleasant meat filling. Tasty; yes, will i eat it again; probably not. Reason being it seemed overly fattening and oily (not a huge fan of oily foods). This time period was also spent at the arcade, fun as always even if all i did was get owned by the A.I of Initial D. I watched my buddies duke it out in no other than DDR or Music stage i think it was called. Very interesting stuffs. I departed towards my pickup point for a lift home as the crew decided to play Guitar hero.

Short post ^_^ excuse shit grammar and all that jazz.
Laters.
P.S My head is pounding like a bitch so be grateful I wrote what I did.

Current Song: Yume - Yuuko Asami

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Skeletons

Current Song: Hikari Sasuhou (Metal Version) - Back-On

Something pretty big just hit me yesterday. I'm sure those who read and were there or have heard know exactly what i'm talking about. No, I will not go into detail what happened or what this big thing is about. Something I would like to say is that I can't justify my actions. I did what I did and that's all. I'll spend the rest of this post going over the couple of things that have been running though my head over the past ten or so hours using cliche' quotes as a reference.

Skeletons in the closet
Yeah, I'm pretty sure everybody has these and it just so happened that one of mine decided to go haywire. Once a skeleton is out, you're most likely going to be damaged or vulnerable to damage in one way or another. I'm not one that should be giving advice or anything like that but I'd recommend not giving excuses and instead finding ways or other methods to better yourself from this experience. I probably have a huge amount of other skeletons lurking in my closet but I've probably sealed them from my mainstream memory bank as I can't remember much that I would consider bad and hope my past never catches up with me.

Your past will catch up with you
I don't exactly know what to say about this one but I thought it should be here. I'm not saying that... Actually I don't know what I'm saying full stop. Lets move on. =)

Playing your cards right
I'm not implying that life is a game of cards, rather i'm using the game of cards as an example as in card games and i guess many other games, tables can turn in instances and being top one moment can lead to being chewed up by your opponents the next. I guess what I'm trying to say is that life is unstable. Things pop up when you least expect it and i'm sure this quote could be interpreted in various other ways but i'm going to use it regarding friendship, again i'm by no means implying that friendship can be played like a game of cards but rather the decision making processes involved. If you have been a good friend, your friends will not turn on you. Something i probably knew deep down but has been made more clear than day to me recently. You people know who you are, and deep down i love you all =).

I hope I didn't confuse anybody with that little rant, and kinda seems i'm trying to justify myself for those events. I guess I am. It doesn't matter, if you feel that i'm in the wrong here then just stop reading, nobody is forcing you.

I will end with this; The past is what makes the present
Interpret that however you wish, i'll leave you with that quote.

Laters
Current song: Naked Flower - Romi Paku

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Purple finger = fun fun

Current Song - None

Reading the title you'd probably think "wtf?" well the title is because currently I HAVE a finger which is shaded in a tone of purple. Yes, my pinky finger was mashed today during a game of Basketball with the same people/person that is far superior to me at such and i'm pretty sure ALL sports. I had slight worries as my finger might have been broken or fractured but seeing as though I can move it and type stuff without feeling excruciating pain makes me think i'm in the clear for that. Although it does hurt slightly when I put pressure on it (normal for bruises right?). Today was also the first occurance in the last year or so that I cycled to Basketball rather than taking other less tiring means of transport. Makes me feel good; putting in a slight effort to stay away from becoming obese. Makes me happy =).

Do you know when sometimes you watch a show, in my case it's Anime but when you finished watching the show you think; "damn that was awesome". Yesterday that tingling feeling that can be described in no other way came to me as i put the next Anime in my journey to rest. That Anime being 'Murder Princess'. What can I say about it? I loved almost every aspect of it regardless of the fact that it didn't receive top tier (fucking Phil, had to teach me that word didn't you?) ratings from the website that I consult for my Anime needs. The opening, the animation, the seiyuus' (i probably spelt it wrong, means voice caster or something like that), everything about that Anime made me go "wow!". What I especially like about this is the drawings of the various characters. I didn't expect such a gruesome Anime (plenty of gore and all that) to produce highly likely the prettiest Anime characters i've ever seen. That may sound fairly perverted but I don't mean that in the perverted nature as Murder Princess is an action Anime. Kawaii Anime characters. *feels good inside for a moment before returning to the real world* This feeling that comes to me after an extremely masterful Anime last came to after finishing the first Season of Higurashi (currently on my top 5 list *will be updated soon... maybe*)

Recently it has been revealed to me that I've been sleeping more and more as these holidays have progressed forwards. I don't exactly know the reason for this but I suppose it has plenty to do with my lifestyle choices, I believe that oversleeping isn't a good thing. Eight hours is the hit zone in my eyes and deviating away from this magical eight is bad for you I reckon and i've been hitting around nine and a half hours heading ever so quickly towards ten. How do you fix this kind of problem I wonder, when I had school there was a reason to wake up which kept my in form but as school is out what can I do? ._.

I've been playing DotA at increasingly high intervals the past few days. I don't know the reason for this but I've been reminded why I used to enjoy DotA so much. The reason I believe is cause it is easy, DotA is easy. Controlling a single unit in Warcraft3 is a whole lot easier than controlling an army (obviously!) coupled with the fact that DotA is 'noob roulette'. I call it this because when you play public games of DotA you NEVER know when you're gonna get good opponents, good team mates or complete opposite; feeding bags who don't even know how to deny stuff.

Enough ranting from me.
Laters,
Tay

Current Song: Fure Fureppon Pon! - Mai Kadowaki

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

i'm still alive... probably

Current Song: Trust, You're truth - Kotoko

What up dog? It's been what? 4 days? since my last post. I've been thinking of writing a post for awhile now comes up as i'm trying to fall asleep sometimes however, when I start writing it, my mind goes blank... ABSOLUTELEFUCKINGLY blank. I don't know why either which kinda frustrates me a lot cause I do enjoy blogging. Probably spending my days dully doesn't help me write interesting blog posts with varied content. Just been doing the same old stuff. Sleep, eat, exercise, game and that's about it.

God damn it, I remember having something really 'something' to write about but now i've got nothing and it's really ticking me off...

I might as well summarize my days since my last post. Went to play Basketball at a friends place. I've become increasingly sucky at sport cause I play once per full moon and I play with people (in my eyes) are far superior to me at basketball. I went to a friends place on Tuesday to watch some anime, the anime of choice was quite interesting and we managed to burn roughly four hours with about ten episodes of it, was enjoyable i'd like to add.

Yesterday (Wednesday) was some orientation thing for transition to year 12. English books cost $120 =(. Because the seller was kinda stupid the first ten people or so only needed to pay a mere $88 for their books. (Learn to do math you suit!) I'd just like to announce that I have mastered the ninja art of contacting books. It wasn't easy but it wasn't exactly hard either (for me anyway). The first two books that I attempted to cover with contact failed, complete failure while every book after that was pro if i don't say myself. Orientation basically means holiday homework. Yes, I got maths and English homework which I plan to get started on in the new month. Next month I intend to harden the fuck up and get some study done.

I don't speak about my favorites months and stuff much and I thought i might talk about it a bit now. I don't celebrate Christmas, I don't celebrate Chinese New Year... What do I celebrate? Nothing I believe. Christmas is just another day for me, so is new years and all that jazz. So to talk about my favorite month; I don't think I have one all months are the same and stuff. I don't even make much of a deal about my birthday, anybody reading probably doesn't even know when it is =). Maybe all these factors contribute to my pessimism and maybe also the reason for why I'm so mean and shallow and stuff.

I've been playing Chrono Trigger, something to do to past the time. Clocked up about 12 hours of game play over 2 days so far. Means I've been playing it rather contently, I'll have to say Chrono Trigger is an EPIC RPG. Maybe my standards for RPG's have lowered as I don't play many any more but damn is Chrono Trigger epic. Above all it's extremely difficult, most games that i've played in recent times (i don't play a large variety of games) have all been fairly straight forward and Chrono Trigger really brings me back. Some bosses own me completely and it annoys me sometimes but yeah it's good; very challenging.

I'm sorry all once again I'm out of things to write (probably not if i gave it like 2 seconds of thought but i'm lazy what can you do? =).)

Peace out, Laters, Bye, and all that kinda stuffs.

Current Song: Chercher ~ sharushie ~ - KOTOKO