2 Steps Nearer

2008-09-06T02:44:00.001-07:00

Currently listening to: Nothing

Hey all it's been awhile since my last post and i thought id post.
Yes i will be all emo today and talk about really emo topics and so forth.

Have you ever come across a life changing event? Thinking "did i make the right choice?". Well it just so happens that i came across one of those today. Thinking back I do wonder if i made the right choice. That said i'd rather not think about such things. One of my morals or life ethics or whatever you call these things is: "You make choices and never look back". That is exactly what i intend to do. I mean even if i did look back, what benefit would it have to my future? I'd be dwelling on it for possibly the rest of my life if it ended up being a wrong decision and I just don't want to have that on my conscience. I'll admit this kinda thing is incredibly hard to omit from ones thinking range but it must be done if you're to move on from it.

That's all i wanted to say. I've vented enough for today and probably wont be back until after the exams. Hey all to the people that come here and read this crap occasionally.

Take care;
Tay

Current song: none again, i know i'm not in the mood for music right now.

2008-07-23T01:54:00.000-07:00

Current song: Utatane - Chata

How are you? I'm completely fine. To get things going, i've been recently told that my posts are overly emotional. Let me set things straight, i AM EMO. That is correct, I don't exactly know what emo means to you but to me it's somebody who become depressed often and at incredibly random intervals for the utmost stupid reasons. That is exactly who I am. Moving on, it has been awhile since i posted but i did point that this would be occurring in my last post as school is starting to get a hold of me.

To say the least I want this year to end incredibly badly. I want to get this year over and done with, however i don't feel that I'm putting the required effort in to achieve what i wish to. I haven't been going to the library, haven't been studying at home. I've been doing nothing. I also have no idea how i intend to change my habits of this but i hope things do work out for me.

Where to start about the rest of the happenings during the holidays and stuff. There is quite a lot to say. Did the holidays happen since my last post? Probably. I guess I'll divulge into what my holiday involved shall I? Well I had winter school and a dress-up party and one, yep ONLY one dinner outing with my friends. Winter school was useful to say the least, it kinda woke my brain up from holiday mode rather than taught me anything which was useful. No offense intended to anybody when i say this but the dress-up party was frankly a waste of my money to be honest. I probably enjoyed going to winter school more than that party because I was surrounded by people who I did not know, and I've probably said this before; I absolutely suck at socializing and/or talking to new people, I have trouble talking to my friends sometimes let alone complete strangers >_<. Dinner was at no other than Yakiniku, this time however differed from the last in the sense that we didn't buy 'all you can eat' and although i wasn't displeased i wasn't incredibly happy either about the amount of food I ate that day. If i ever go to Yakiniku again, I'm gonna set all you can eat as a criteria else I don't think there's a reason for me to go. It is worth the extra $5-$10 or so for the freedom of eating as much as you want and you don't feel guilty as well cause you know that nobody else is reserving themselves as well to save money.

Well, in a nutshell; that was my holiday, I went to the library a couple of times but apart from that I stayed at home and did nothing.
Yes that is my brand new T-shirt that after roughly 2 months of waiting; arrived yesterday. The wait was worth it cause i absolutely love the design of it. Sadly it's more of a summer jersey so even if i wore it in winter it'd be covered mostly by a jacket or something which is a shame but still. That shirt is awesome. I'm still however waiting for volumes 7 and 8 of Pastel which I also ordered roughly two months ago and still have not obtained them. Although this isn't such a big deal cause getting a refund from Minotaur (in the city) is much easier then trying to get a refund for my jersey (Finland; far much?)

Other stuff that has been happening; I recently became addicted to anime again in the form of Kateikyoshi Hitman Reborn; one of those ongoing shounen animes that doesn't differ from Bleach or Naruto too much apart from how unpopular or undiscovered it is. I managed to burn maybe through maybe 30 eps of that anime in one day? I don't think i've done that or been able to do that since i watched bleach but that was way back in April 2007, long time ago eh? Right now I'm watching Potemayo; a really cutesy anime or what the Japanese would call; 'moe' (pronounced mo-eh) .

Thats enough for today I think, i've just become extremely lazy and don't feel like writing anymore.
Laters
Tay~

Current song: Utatane - Chata (i've got it on repeat =P)

Let us walk our respective paths from this farewell onward.

2008-06-15T02:45:00.000-07:00

Curreng song: DEEP CALM - M.O.V.E

It's time to blog, i should be doing homework, but i feel the heavy urge to vent myself. One of the easiest ways is through blogging. This week has just been one of those weeks you know? Maybe not, this week probably marks an extremely defining point in my life based on some decisions that i came to terms with. I have a feeling that my future will be greatly altered due to some actions i took this week. For the sake of privacy i will not be revealing what this decision or the outcomes of it were. But if you know what i'm talking about then it's meant to be, if you don't on the other hand, that's also how it's meant to be.

Last week was exam week, marking the half way point of the year. The end draws ever so near and i get closer and closer to that home stretch which has elusively evaded me for nearly 18 years. Not much has been happening in my life apart from the huge screw up that I did. (if you could call it that) which has caused a serious disturbance in my thought and consumes my mind almost all the time.

I don't really feel up to creating a relatively structured post today so i'm just going to be tangent 'ing none stop throughout this post so please bare with me or stop reading. The decision that i made has brought upon two things I can do about it, one is move on and forget, give up on this particular aspect of my life and hope for the best. The other is try and repair this aspect of my life, this is the more appealing option to me but is also the more difficult option as anybody can do 'nothing' but its those that do something about their situation that make a difference. The first option relates heavily to my post title which is what I'm into these days; very sappy philosophical one liners which sound pretty cool.

Other interesting things have been my friday boxhill dinner nights, although this week i didn't go, the past 3 weeks I had dinner at boxhill with varying acquaintances which was very enjoyable. I've probably said this in a previous post but these days i've really enjoyed conversation and it's probably a sign of my growth into maturity, I'm starting to avoid social activities that don't involve much conversation as I kind of find them sub-sufficient and would rather spend my times involved in other activities. The main one i'm looking at is going to the movies. Only under extreme circumstances will i opt to go to a movie with friends. Anyway back to the topic, I had dinner at KimChi and YamiYami. Yes i am doing free advertisements for these restaurants as I reckon that they are really awesome and you ought to check them out.

I think tomorrow will mark the end of my problems as I probably will have a resolution determined after tomorrow. If not tomorrow then the day after.

Well i'm off. Enjoy the post, they are becoming more and more scarce and will continue to decline as the year proceeds towards its end.

Tay-

Current song: How to see you again - M.O.V.E

Just do it.

2008-05-24T04:52:00.000-07:00

Current song: The Young Descendant of Tepes - Touhou game soundtrack

Coming to realize that people actually take time out of their precious lives to read my 'walls of text' kinda feels nice, although the main focus of my products are to vent my personal feelings; get them off my chest however knowing that people read these things is nice. I've had an eventful couple of days to say the absolute very least. Meeting old friends learning new things, privileged by new experiences which i do not intend to write about here today. Indeed the past few days have been absolutely extraordinary but they most likely will not crop up in this or future posts to come as the content of my past week is incredibly deep and personal and, henceforth i'm extremely hesitant to share with the open public. Gomen ne?

Drifting to the end of the second week of my study regime I feel good, I feel like i'm getting somewhere with my studies which is brilliant. I have no idea as to what the rest of my ramble will contain (like always!) but I just feel like writing today even if it leads to a pointless end. I guess now is as good time as any to address my title. 'Just do it' is exactly how i feel these days, applies to everything, homework? just do it, wanting to raid on wow on weeknights, just do it, whatever be the case I'm believing 'just do it' for now as strange as that sounds and 'oh so' very cliche'.

Apart from the deeper stuff in my life, other events include a maths competition which I am probably getting signed up for, almost no progress in terms of anime as my time just drains away these days, I guess i just have a whole lot on my plate these days, last week I was afraid of not being able to cope whilst under my regime, and it showed; lack of appetite on some days, extreme tiredness on others, symptoms i never really felt under my more relaxed way of life. I've been playing Mario Kart Super Circuit on my brothers GBA-SP, it is a great game and if you have it, i suggest vs.ing me as i would prove to be quite a challenge. If you play this game and have trouble with it, all i can say is never let go of the acceleration button and never bump. That will greatly increase your time trial times which is all that matters to me when playing that game.

I don't know if i'm using this word wrong when i write it here but i feel as if im in a melancholic mood these days, I'm very much pessimistic, and very little things turn my mood sour very quickly. I know this will never get to him, but i'd like to apologize to Masahide (hope i spelt that correctly) for my attitude towards him this morning/noon at school commenting that he was scary, I'd in fact very much like to get to know him if a chance ever rose.

Enough rant for now, I'm becoming drowsy, i've had a long day and been kinda out of it since the afternoon, it is now 10:11pm. Good night.

Tay~

Current song: Retrospective Kyoto - Touhou game soundtrack

Tay uses 'Harden the fk up'!

2008-05-21T03:34:00.000-07:00

Current song: ZUN - Illusionary Night ~ Ghostly Eyes - Touhou 8 OST

Well, it has been a month or so since my last post. Big improvement upon last time which was the four month drought if i'm correct. I was contemplating writing a blog last night amongst the random thoughts which trouble me endlessly disallowing me to obtain inner peace and some sleep. As the flow of things go, I'm here writing this without a clue as to what the content of this post shall be.
Firstly, i'll address the title of my post. Since the beginning of last week (Monday the 12th i believe). I began my regime in which I go to the library EVERY night after school and attempt to study until at least 6pm. Ends up providing me with at least 2 hours of homework a night and more if i do not have afternoon classes. The reason for this rapid change in my lifestyle is because i've come to some conclusions and failing year 12 is one of them. I figure if i don't study I'll fail. Simple, isn't it? I'm unable to study at home due to distractions brought upon by the existence of my computer and the myriad of interesting things i can do on it. (Like blogging!).
Hehe, I thought i'd have a lot more to write about but i guess i was wrong.

Well all i can say is sorry >_< truely i thought i'd be able to provide you readers (nobody) a decent amount of content today. Dang.

I'll sign off. If i remember more stuff during my attempts to sleep, I'll try to store them in my brain until the next time i feel the sudden urge to blog.

Tay~
Current Song: ZUN - Eternal Dream ~ Mystic Maple - Touhou 8 OST

Relentlessly press on, regardless.

2008-04-29T04:16:00.000-07:00

Current song: Tomorrow song - Afromania

Hi those who used to read my blog. I'm sure you've all been waiting extremely patiently for this blog post. Plenty has happened in the past 4 months and sadly most of it is a mere blur to me as of now so my post will consist on mostly the thoughts that consume my mind at this current time.

Has anybody ever written something in their distant past only to re-read it today saying; "Oh god you were so damn stupid back then." For example i used to keep a diary in primary school. (Something nobody will lay eyes on ever.) Anyway in this diary i wrote a myriad of interesting things; An extract straight from the diary is: "Today was a happy, I got to talk to XYZ and it was really nice. I hope XYZ and ABC get along well. It would be nice if they did." Reading that might radiate a feeling of normality however is not the case if you actually knew what exactly I was writing about. Anyway, that aside I've read my previous posts to find that I don't have that "You're so stupid" feeling which pleases me a little cause it means my ideals and my mind set has remained the same.

Around this time I begin to think about my future, well maybe at the beginning of the year but now is also a good time to think about what lies ahead for Tay. Last weekend I went to my cousins son's 7th birthday and met some of my cousins for the first time in an incredibly long period of time. I enjoy this a lot cause my cousins are like friends but are ALL older than me which is nice as i have few friends that stray from my age group. Yeah, anyway after that day I realized how nice some of their lives were, very normal despite the fact that most of them did not graduate high school. I'm not saying I'm going to give up on High school, no that would be absurd but I'm just pointing out that if I don't get into my desired university then it's absolutely fine as there are just so many paths to make as well as brilliant people to meet.

Recently especially in the past month i've been talking to people @ school that i never thought i'd be able to relate to and my outlook on this aspect of friendship has changed dramatically as well. Friends aren't something that can be strictly categorized as there are so many nice personalities around. With that i believe that my year 12 school year will be a brillant one, probably the best year of my school life.

Time to tangent as something has come to mind that i wish to vent here. It involves the female species of the homosapien (sounds scientific =P). Anyways every now and then I spot a really pretty girl on the train. I say this in the most unperverted way that is humanly possible, anyway why this person gets my attention is their hair, yeah thats correct, their hair. Hair is one of those things that is quite sophisticated as there are many ways to go about it. I personally believe not having a classic hair is something that should be avoided. I'm not one to really say this as i've absolutely no clue to as how hard it is to make a nice hairdo as i virtually never do my hair whenever but for the ladies i believe something that isn't frequently seen is nice. Hairdos such as pony tail, straight, plats and the various hair styles known by most aren't that interesting. While saying i'll add i'm a fanboy of the famously known Asian spiky hair which mimics Cloud of FF7. Yes i am a fan boy but also believe that style is slightly hardcore for me. Anyway, back to the topic, I'm not that great at explaining this but i reckon i'd be nice if females went a little different, when i say this i have no hairstyle in mind but as long as they have a sense of what catches the eye opposed to a laugh drawing hairdo i'll be content.

What else to talk about, yes thats right; Cocky people, don't you just hate cocky people who don't be quiet? I'll provide an example; This actually happened, anyway my cousins were playing mario kart at the youngsters 7th birthday and this person, i don't know why he was there and i don't think he was related to my family was watching. His making comments like;
Lol, you got owned.
Haha, if i played I'd get 1st!
Dude you suck, you're coming last.
Anyway after the race, he gets his turn to play, were playing 150cc the hardest difficulty and the race starts. Stuff happens and he happens to come 4th thats fkn right! 4th. Guess what he says next? "Well, I came 4th at least it's better than last" I mean come on!!! It scores you 1 point in the fucking grand prix. (excuse the swearing) I mean if you're cocky and can actually back your words up with action i'll bear with it but if you're mouthing off and you're a noob, i'll just turn away in disgust and probably walk away after degrading my respect for you a whole heap.

What else can i write? well, recent animes that i've watched? good ones that is: Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann, Sensei no Ojikan and Shigofumi(currently watching) off the top of my head. Still collecting manga, I'm proud to say that I enjoy reading manga more than i do watching anime but only in the book form and in bed, it really is an enjoyable time passer however it is fairly costly reaching about $20/hour roughly.

To those who read this blog which i'm fairly sure that amounts to zero; i'm sorry i haven't posted in a long while but yeah. Before this long drought i did say this was slowly becoming a chore didn't I? Oh and if you DO read this, do comment if you have the time, I know in the past i haven't really cared about wether people post or not but if you post comments, i become more motivated to write more blog posts.

Thanks in advance, enjoy your face/desk while reading this virtually incomprehensible wall of text.
Tay

Current song - Very very - Afromania <-- great song~!~!

2008-01-19T20:21:00.000-08:00

Current song: Wai Puo - Jay Chou

Howdy chumps. Lazy. That's all i'll say regarding the 3 weeks or so that I havn't posted in. Take it or leave it, cause you ain't getting anymore. Well, with the three weeks that have passed come a myriad of events (I don't think that word was used properly, oh well). School would be the most significant activity on this list of events consuming 6 out of however many days it has been since i've posted. Melbourne University has a wicked sick cafeteria, decent variety as well as extremely affordable. I wouldn't mind going there for the next few years of my life following 2008. Ehh, i'll take a day at a time shall I? Did i mention that I should be doing my methods holiday homework but instead, i'm blogging~ I'll get on it tomorrow i hope... I've kinda recovered from laziness and my brain is actually on these days thanks to Summer School. Worth every cent if not even more than the $270 that i paid for it.

Another exciting thing or not so exciting thing is that i've started collecting manga. Yes i intend on starting to blow money on manga on a regular basis. I've started with Pastel very nice manga, suits me very well. (perverted~ maybe...) Other things that happened? Well... Not much, I mean i could elaborate on summer school and such but ill leave it to your imagination. Lazy.

Yeah, I'm at the point where blogging is more of a chore than it is for fun, maybe I should stop. But obviously I won't cause it's one of those things where you can vent emotions, thoughts and such. Help relieve stress to a certain extent. I dunno. Watch 'Aria the animation' and the series that follow that, they are great stress relievers IMO.

Yeah im done for now. Later.
Yeah yeah i'm very aware that I'm not providing very interesting and worthwhile reading material but with that, I don't care and neither should you =).

Bye bye.

Current Song: Kujibiki Unbalance - Under17

tumble weed rolls across the screen

2008-01-02T00:03:00.000-08:00

Current song: Kokoro Niji wo Kakete - Misato Fujiya

New year brings a new MMORPG addiction. Damn right, last year it was WoW this year it's Seal Online a kinda less known game that was only released in November. I don't think it has the merits of a extremely good long lasting MMO but for some reason i'm hooked and I can't unhook myself from such clutches as MMO's have a pretty vicious hold on me. New years are meant to be a new leaf, a new start, a new beginning in theory but in reality, I don't see changes. I was meant to begin studying this year but, like always i've grown extremely accustomised to my holiday lifestyle and find it hard to give up, maybe with summer school coming that might change my mind-set slightly (DOUBTFUL!).

I can't really summarize my year too well like some of the other people cause I can't even remember what I had for dinner last night let alone what happened at the beginning of 2007. All I can say is this year has been the 'Anime awakening' year and damn was that a good thing. I'd like to thank my uber friends for guiding me to the bright light, I'm now in a blissful place thanks to you fellas =). Other highlights for 'oh-seven' include Manifest, buying an Ipod (i had never bought a media player in my life before this) and replacing my 5-6 year old computer. That's ALL i have to highlight about my year. I can't really remember anything slightly interesting other than those happening in this year so instead of talking about that, i'll say a couple of things that i may or may not look forward to this year.

Things that i'm kinda looking forward to include:
Summer School
As much as it'll suck if a hot day comes and rapes me over, I genuinely believe that summer school will be fun, not only educational. But then not many people i know are attending so that may or may not alter the end result of the experience.
Manifest
It was great last year and i'd be damned if it isn't great this year. I read in the booklet that either Manifest wouldn't run this year or would be toned down a notch this year as the insufficient number of volunteers really does make running such an epic event difficult.
Anime
No doubt about it, I will continue to indulge in Anime, there's no denying it. It's only January and i've already taken interest to some of the new Anime coming out this month. Also the on-going Anime that started last year seem very promising.
Socializing
I've been doing quite a bit of this recently, with new and old friends and frankly, it's great. I'm a tad cautious about attending parties though as they don't seem too appealing to me since i'm not a big person on alcohol.
Formal
Assuming I don't fail year 12, yes, i will be looking forward to formal. Something about hanging out in suits and fancy stuffs just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Oh, and so people know, I will not dance, i'm not big in dancing and never will be and at formal will refuse to dance NO MATTER WHAT.
Saturday school
This is on a similar boat to to summer school. I hope it's fun, meeting new people and stuff, although my self-esteem isn't huge, I hope i get along with people and if i stick to LOTE, make some new friends.
Seal Online
I hate this game, cause i'm addicted to it. I hope i can drop it before it starts causing me some serious damage via. study disruptions.

To sum things up, currently life is good, hope it remains good and hope i become successful in this coming year.

This was written over 2 days or so, so there might be something i forgot to add.
Anyway thats my new-years rant complete.

Laters~

Current song: Agony - KOTOKO

KOTOKO = ICHIBAN S2 HER!!!

Relentlessly, time presses forward

2007-12-25T00:37:00.000-08:00

Current song: Tears infection - Kaori

Christmas has finally hit, to those who celebrate this day; I wish you a happy day. To be honest the past month or so has seemed like 2 days, less, a day and a half seems more appropriate. Either one of two things have happened; time has gone by really fast or, I can't remember anything I did during this period cause bluntly I don't believe I've done anything worth remembering. I've done NOTHING. Absolutely nothing productive since my exams finished. Before I realize it, new year will arrive then comes the period where my brain starts functioning like a regular brain with the aid of school.

What's more is that today my parents head home, yep. Home to Vietnam for a month so... consequently I'm at home with my brothers for a month and occasionally my sister-in-law. I used to live like this more often, my parents sometimes vacated for as long as 4 month long periods a while back. I don't mind this lifestyle, no it isn't the healthiest live-style but i'd be damned to say it's the worse. You could call it a time period of independence, where I have to make my own choices and food doesn't magically appear on the dining table every night (thanks mom ^^).

There isn't much going on in my life right now as I said, my parents left for Vietnam so not much I can do is there? I'm partly looking forward to Summer-school, new experiences are always enjoyable even if they might be bad, who cares =P. I've been playing a lot of warcraft 3 recently, no not dota, but REAL men warcraft 3. I swear warcraft 3 used to be so much more fun when i was a newb and didn't know how to play. Now, yes it is still fun but it's also hard, very hard if I don't mind saying. So many mind games and such are involved, it's just mindblowing. Thinking about that alone makes you really not wanna play, but I stay, for some peculiar reason; I stay and i'll stay for awhile to come.
Following Chrono Trigger, I've picked up Chrono Cross on my PS1 Emulator. It's fun but the rom is slightly buggy which is troublesome at points. Anime has been same old, I've finished watching the second season of Higurashi no naku koro ni AKA Higurashi no naku koro ni KAI. I stand firm to having Higurashi on my list of top 5 animes. Acquaintances of mine have stated that Higurashi is multiple stories. In fact it isn't multiple stories, I can't go into much more detail than this without spoiling the entire thing for you, sorry! Please understand that I really hate spoilers, no i'll change that i despise of spoilers. If i have spoiled anything for you EVER, i sincerely apologize and will kick myself in the head if i find out I've spoiled something for you. (Seriously I will... kick myself in the head that is).

Since i've got nothing else to write off the top of my head, I'm gonna talk about 'Kyoto animation productions' aka KyoAni. Personally my favorite Anime making company in conjuction with 'Visual art's' and 'Key', these companies have managed to produce titles i adore. Air TV, Kanon 2006 and Clannad to name a few. The stories are gloomy, saturated deeply in sadness, stories which above all; incite emotion. All with a slight touch of fantasy. Not to pull you away from realism but to make things more intriguing. I'll say this again like i say countless times, I am no Film reviewer, I am no Anime critic, i'm just a random member of society expressing an opinion. These titles... leave my speechless, mind blowing to an extent. Most importantly leave me with many thoughts, which take countless hours to process and finally put to rest. Absolute masterpieces IMO.

Well I hope you enjoy my Christmas rant, it differs from all my other rants by a factor of zero.

Laters

Current Song: Yubikiri - Mai Kadowaki

Respect

2007-12-21T23:15:00.000-08:00

Current Song: 夜を駆ける - スピッツ

The realization that it hasn't even been a day since my last post has come to me but I kinda have something on my mind and thought I would vent a little. Pass the time away while putting some rather deep thoughts to rest.

The initiation topic shall be respect.
Respect is an important thing, it determines how others interact with you and how you are able to interact with others. Before I go any further, I'd just like to add; I am no scientist, I am no social studier. I'm just somebody expressing his OWN opinion, nothing more.
I'll use another cliche' quote; "respect isn't handed to you, you have to work for respect". The way you treat others, the way you communicate with others ultimately determines how much people respect or alternatively disrespect you. I guess this also leads onwards to 'treat others how you wish to be treated'. I'll admit I'm not the nicest person in the world, I will insult you at almost every chance GIVEN that (i guess) show you respect. No, i will not go up to a random and start swearing at them but I will however swear and bag my friends a heap. Ultimately cause I believe it doesn't cause problems and it illustrates the exact person that I am. I mean, I can't tell when people genuinely like me or are just putting on a happy face for my sake, but i believe the people I socialize with genuinely like who i am, how i speak, how i react and all that.

Superiority is another thing i want to cover. Whether you have a better car than somebody, better computer or even better internet connection for that matter :P. Although I admit I do joke about this kind of thing often but I don't say I'm better than that person for abc reason. Ultimately I'm better than NOBODY and nobody is better than me. Everybody has their worth however some peoples worth is more valuable to some than it is to others which leads to the kinda friends you end up with or rather obtain in life. When I think about some of the garbage i'm sprouting out i feel like I'm contradicting myself as I do some of the stuff here that I'm saying not to. I guess I should change for the better.

Opinion is another thing I want to cover, yes, your opinion is 100% valid you're always entitled to it but the moment you start provoking people with snide remarks resulting in the outcome that you genuinely believe that your opinion is stronger or better than somebody else's then you again have crossed that line. I like to think I exercise a lot of self control in the sense I do onto others as i wish upon myself. But when somebody says xyz is better than abc, i'll live with it, it's your opinion, i understand however when you start saying "you have a poor opinion" or something similar to that I have to start exerting self-control, stopping myself from blurting out a remark along the lines of: YOU'RE A DICK, F%*K OFF!!
Honestly, what makes you think that your opinion is any better than mine? There is no basis for that and even though you're not directly saying "hehe my opinion is better than your's." When you abuse somebody's opinion you are automatically saying that their opinion is below yours.

This once again is some serious stuff I'm covering here. I think. I'm just ranting don't take it seriously. Just remember though don't go out of your way to make others feel bad, it ain't worth it.

I swear, sooooo many people that read this are gonna flame me. If not everybody =P.

Laters

Current Song: Venus Say - Buzy

che

2007-12-21T15:08:00.000-08:00

Current song: Yowake Umare Kuru Shoujo - Takahashi Yoko

I've been getting quite a few inquiries regarding my score in my year 12 subject so i thought id post this image to prove my statement in an earlier post;
Do you see? I got 36 not 46, I have lied, i'm sorry but who wants to look bad to their peers. Afterwards I thought I'd come clean and yeah.

What happened between this post and my last post? I played DotA just a game and yeah i was with quite a few people that I know. Game mode being aremsp (all random, Easy mode, Shuffle players). I got Lycan, I got a positive score to say the least but a hero like Lycan (aka Banehollow i think) is fairly boring to play as all he can do is run opponents down and bite them to death, apart from that theres very little he can do to kill stuff. Of course 32% attack bonus for units around you is always imbalanced added with empower which is 70% if i;m not wrong and you got some mean ass biting dog to deal with. Readers probably don't understand what the hell I'm talking about and that's fine cause I don't care anymore =).

The other day I was playing a game of FFA in warcraft 3, FFA stand for 'free for all' where 4 players are put into a game randomly and its a case of last man standing. As much as I enjoy playing warcraft when a game takes over 2 hours to complete you really just wanna curse at people and hit stuff. I mean 2 hours for a damn game is just silly. At the very least I won, which kinda is a plus from the 2 hours spent, cant say the same for the other players though, staying for 2 hours just to lose is not fun at all.

Ill tell you readers a bit more about myself today with this picture:

These 2 people are heroes in my eyes even though you may not know who they are. These 2 are no other than Yoan Merlo and Jang Jae Ho respectively. Professional warcraft 3 players who get payed a salary to play the game. Although I don't think it's possible for a person of my caliber to reach the top level, i give out my respect to these fellas and many akin to these two as they make warcraft 3 so enjoyable for me that I don't think I'll ever give warcraft 3 up in all honesty.

This is another rather short post but oh well, two short posts back to back make up for a really long post 2 weeks waiting or something like that.

Later all~

Current Song: Tears Infection - Kaori

Soaked.

2007-12-21T00:14:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Aozora - Yuria

It's been awhile since my last post, yes lazy being the primary reason also lack of interesting things to write. I got a request from a friend (i wouldn't call it a request, rather a point of advice for what to write in my posts in case i have nothing to write about). But seeing as though I did something today I guess i'll write the regular kinda stuff that you people come here to read. Today was a friend's birthdays, I kinda feel bad not giving him anything but I'm always strapped for cash and I realize an excuse is an excuse nonetheless but which ever way you cut it, I'm going to look cheap, buying a cheap gift or buying nothing at all. I guess I'm playing the "It's the thought that counts" card in this particular case.

This party however was exactly what I needed, as selfish as that is. It was a time to chill out with good friends relaxing doing stuff and overall blowing a few hours enjoyably. I really wish these events would happen more often as they are so much fun, I guess that's exactly what socializing is. My friend has a large house. My friend had an awesome birthday cake, I mean seriously rich chocolate cake which I reckon would have cost a decent sum of cash, although as I write this post I'm slightly annoyed as it's dinner time and I have absolutely no appetite for dinner. Probably end up getting a Big Mac meal at 9 PM or something just for the sake of it (today being an 'eat out' day and McDonalds being conveniently located). I don't regret eating cake regardless though, it was very tasty. Thank you friend whos name shall remain anonymous; I wish you a happy 17th B'day. Oh yeah, today I rode home in the relatively heavy rain, ending up soaked by rain for possibly the first time in my life, purposely for that matter. (hence the title of this post) I'm not one of those hooligans that get soaked in rain just for the hell of it. (You're cool but, NO... Just no...) The temperature was quite high so I won't have to worry about getting ill i believe. (Yes, I'm weak. Do I care? No.)

On to other less important matters, I got results for my year 12 subject which is quite important as it will help determine my enter score. (I've got a future too you know?) Contrary to the lives i've been spreading, I got a 36, yes 36. You guys must be surprised at how poorly I went. Yes I got 36, NOT 46 =P. Hehe, I'm happy with my record I suppose, I found out last years top scorer for this particular subject was 50, now I just cant beat that. I'm not a perfect student so that kinda crap is impossible for me. (No I'm not diligent not a single bit) Confirmation for summer school also arrived which is meh. I hope summer school is fun and educational. Educational mostly, i'm only doing summer school to hopefully obtain a slight advantage over my other peers which I just don't see happening.

I'm just really lazy these days and I don't wanna write any more, I'll probably make up for that with a post tomorrow.

Catch you readers later~

Current Song: Concordia - Kukui

An event flag has been triggered! YAY!

2007-12-13T23:38:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Musou Uta - Suara

I'm drained. Exhausted to my very core due to the events that went down today. Might I add, i'm also extremely broke =/. Today; Friday went to play badminton. I'll have to say it was meh, not even decent to my standards. It was very hot and we ended up using our time playing basketball. I'll admit now that I am one of the WORST basketballers' ever; period. I mean it's actually hard to suck as much as I do at something. Regardless of that I enjoy playing so much, I don't know why, I can get injured (which occurs often) and I tire like a bitch but it's just a joy to play. Might I add i foul a lot, wait let me change that. I foul FREQUENTLY, like almost every single ball will result me fouling. I can't dribble either (*dribble* *dribble* *STOLEN* *curse!*).

Again I ended my day with Bubblecup, if you dislike Bubblecup I will make it my business to NEVER interact with you again =). Bubblecup is just top tier! (Phil is going to fucking pay for this.) I believe I should really try some new flavors although green apple green tea just is so great. The reason for my Bubblecup fondness I reckon, would have to be because it's a light yet sweet drink. When I drink Bubblecup, it feels similar to downing some water, it doesn't leave me with the heavy feeling that is dropped upon me when soft drink/fizzy drinks are consumed. Regardless of the extreme costs involved with Bubblecup, I will continue to support this franchise for months and years to come.

After the excruciation which was the sport, the crew for the day decided trek back to the local Asian gathering zone and pass the time through chilling. Here we passed the time walking, through the market and stuff. I tried some new food, something called a Kruller, a fried bun with a rather pleasant meat filling. Tasty; yes, will i eat it again; probably not. Reason being it seemed overly fattening and oily (not a huge fan of oily foods). This time period was also spent at the arcade, fun as always even if all i did was get owned by the A.I of Initial D. I watched my buddies duke it out in no other than DDR or Music stage i think it was called. Very interesting stuffs. I departed towards my pickup point for a lift home as the crew decided to play Guitar hero.

Short post ^_^ excuse shit grammar and all that jazz.
Laters.
P.S My head is pounding like a bitch so be grateful I wrote what I did.

Current Song: Yume - Yuuko Asami

Skeletons

2007-12-11T13:20:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Hikari Sasuhou (Metal Version) - Back-On

Something pretty big just hit me yesterday. I'm sure those who read and were there or have heard know exactly what i'm talking about. No, I will not go into detail what happened or what this big thing is about. Something I would like to say is that I can't justify my actions. I did what I did and that's all. I'll spend the rest of this post going over the couple of things that have been running though my head over the past ten or so hours using cliche' quotes as a reference.

Skeletons in the closet
Yeah, I'm pretty sure everybody has these and it just so happened that one of mine decided to go haywire. Once a skeleton is out, you're most likely going to be damaged or vulnerable to damage in one way or another. I'm not one that should be giving advice or anything like that but I'd recommend not giving excuses and instead finding ways or other methods to better yourself from this experience. I probably have a huge amount of other skeletons lurking in my closet but I've probably sealed them from my mainstream memory bank as I can't remember much that I would consider bad and hope my past never catches up with me.

Your past will catch up with you
I don't exactly know what to say about this one but I thought it should be here. I'm not saying that... Actually I don't know what I'm saying full stop. Lets move on. =)

Playing your cards right
I'm not implying that life is a game of cards, rather i'm using the game of cards as an example as in card games and i guess many other games, tables can turn in instances and being top one moment can lead to being chewed up by your opponents the next. I guess what I'm trying to say is that life is unstable. Things pop up when you least expect it and i'm sure this quote could be interpreted in various other ways but i'm going to use it regarding friendship, again i'm by no means implying that friendship can be played like a game of cards but rather the decision making processes involved. If you have been a good friend, your friends will not turn on you. Something i probably knew deep down but has been made more clear than day to me recently. You people know who you are, and deep down i love you all =).

I hope I didn't confuse anybody with that little rant, and kinda seems i'm trying to justify myself for those events. I guess I am. It doesn't matter, if you feel that i'm in the wrong here then just stop reading, nobody is forcing you.

I will end with this; The past is what makes the present
Interpret that however you wish, i'll leave you with that quote.

Laters
Current song: Naked Flower - Romi Paku

Purple finger = fun fun

2007-12-09T03:14:00.000-08:00

Current Song - None

Reading the title you'd probably think "wtf?" well the title is because currently I HAVE a finger which is shaded in a tone of purple. Yes, my pinky finger was mashed today during a game of Basketball with the same people/person that is far superior to me at such and i'm pretty sure ALL sports. I had slight worries as my finger might have been broken or fractured but seeing as though I can move it and type stuff without feeling excruciating pain makes me think i'm in the clear for that. Although it does hurt slightly when I put pressure on it (normal for bruises right?). Today was also the first occurance in the last year or so that I cycled to Basketball rather than taking other less tiring means of transport. Makes me feel good; putting in a slight effort to stay away from becoming obese. Makes me happy =).

Do you know when sometimes you watch a show, in my case it's Anime but when you finished watching the show you think; "damn that was awesome". Yesterday that tingling feeling that can be described in no other way came to me as i put the next Anime in my journey to rest. That Anime being 'Murder Princess'. What can I say about it? I loved almost every aspect of it regardless of the fact that it didn't receive top tier (fucking Phil, had to teach me that word didn't you?) ratings from the website that I consult for my Anime needs. The opening, the animation, the seiyuus' (i probably spelt it wrong, means voice caster or something like that), everything about that Anime made me go "wow!". What I especially like about this is the drawings of the various characters. I didn't expect such a gruesome Anime (plenty of gore and all that) to produce highly likely the prettiest Anime characters i've ever seen. That may sound fairly perverted but I don't mean that in the perverted nature as Murder Princess is an action Anime. Kawaii Anime characters. *feels good inside for a moment before returning to the real world* This feeling that comes to me after an extremely masterful Anime last came to after finishing the first Season of Higurashi (currently on my top 5 list *will be updated soon... maybe*)

Recently it has been revealed to me that I've been sleeping more and more as these holidays have progressed forwards. I don't exactly know the reason for this but I suppose it has plenty to do with my lifestyle choices, I believe that oversleeping isn't a good thing. Eight hours is the hit zone in my eyes and deviating away from this magical eight is bad for you I reckon and i've been hitting around nine and a half hours heading ever so quickly towards ten. How do you fix this kind of problem I wonder, when I had school there was a reason to wake up which kept my in form but as school is out what can I do? ._.

I've been playing DotA at increasingly high intervals the past few days. I don't know the reason for this but I've been reminded why I used to enjoy DotA so much. The reason I believe is cause it is easy, DotA is easy. Controlling a single unit in Warcraft3 is a whole lot easier than controlling an army (obviously!) coupled with the fact that DotA is 'noob roulette'. I call it this because when you play public games of DotA you NEVER know when you're gonna get good opponents, good team mates or complete opposite; feeding bags who don't even know how to deny stuff.

Enough ranting from me.
Laters,
Tay

Current Song: Fure Fureppon Pon! - Mai Kadowaki

i'm still alive... probably

2007-12-05T22:35:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Trust, You're truth - Kotoko

What up dog? It's been what? 4 days? since my last post. I've been thinking of writing a post for awhile now comes up as i'm trying to fall asleep sometimes however, when I start writing it, my mind goes blank... ABSOLUTELEFUCKINGLY blank. I don't know why either which kinda frustrates me a lot cause I do enjoy blogging. Probably spending my days dully doesn't help me write interesting blog posts with varied content. Just been doing the same old stuff. Sleep, eat, exercise, game and that's about it.

God damn it, I remember having something really 'something' to write about but now i've got nothing and it's really ticking me off...

I might as well summarize my days since my last post. Went to play Basketball at a friends place. I've become increasingly sucky at sport cause I play once per full moon and I play with people (in my eyes) are far superior to me at basketball. I went to a friends place on Tuesday to watch some anime, the anime of choice was quite interesting and we managed to burn roughly four hours with about ten episodes of it, was enjoyable i'd like to add.

Yesterday (Wednesday) was some orientation thing for transition to year 12. English books cost $120 =(. Because the seller was kinda stupid the first ten people or so only needed to pay a mere $88 for their books. (Learn to do math you suit!) I'd just like to announce that I have mastered the ninja art of contacting books. It wasn't easy but it wasn't exactly hard either (for me anyway). The first two books that I attempted to cover with contact failed, complete failure while every book after that was pro if i don't say myself. Orientation basically means holiday homework. Yes, I got maths and English homework which I plan to get started on in the new month. Next month I intend to harden the fuck up and get some study done.

I don't speak about my favorites months and stuff much and I thought i might talk about it a bit now. I don't celebrate Christmas, I don't celebrate Chinese New Year... What do I celebrate? Nothing I believe. Christmas is just another day for me, so is new years and all that jazz. So to talk about my favorite month; I don't think I have one all months are the same and stuff. I don't even make much of a deal about my birthday, anybody reading probably doesn't even know when it is =). Maybe all these factors contribute to my pessimism and maybe also the reason for why I'm so mean and shallow and stuff.

I've been playing Chrono Trigger, something to do to past the time. Clocked up about 12 hours of game play over 2 days so far. Means I've been playing it rather contently, I'll have to say Chrono Trigger is an EPIC RPG. Maybe my standards for RPG's have lowered as I don't play many any more but damn is Chrono Trigger epic. Above all it's extremely difficult, most games that i've played in recent times (i don't play a large variety of games) have all been fairly straight forward and Chrono Trigger really brings me back. Some bosses own me completely and it annoys me sometimes but yeah it's good; very challenging.

I'm sorry all once again I'm out of things to write (probably not if i gave it like 2 seconds of thought but i'm lazy what can you do? =).)

Peace out, Laters, Bye, and all that kinda stuffs.

Current Song: Chercher ~ sharushie ~ - KOTOKO

Current Happenings = Nothing

2007-11-30T18:29:00.000-08:00

Current Song: 扯 - 周杰伦

You'll be noticing that I've started to reduce the consistency in my posting speed as I don't have anything to write about, what do you want; longer more substantial posts or shorter pieces of crap? I thought so. Anyway whats been going on with me the past few days? Well first off I got 'Fury' the MMOPVP game developed entirely in Australia. To be honest it's a disappointment with problems sticking out left and right. Fury is innovative and fun however lacks stability and longevity; simply put.

Yesterday I went to the city and something happened that really got on my nerves. Usually I let this kinda thing pass without much thought but for some reason this lady; leaning towards obesity might I add, really pissed me off. Me and my friends were strolling down the side walk when the just-mentioned lady lets out a remark along the lines of "do you mind not taking up all the side walk?" For one there was plenty of space around us, we were in no means crowded by by-passers. I'm usually passive and do what people tell me if it's reasonable especially from strangers. I politely move aside as to let the fat obnoxious mass of human stride past us. Honestly, couldn't she just shift to the side slightly and over take us that way instead of trying to start something?
I don't think i've ever made a scene in my life and don't think i ever will start a scene. (prove me wrong if you want)

We didn't do much at the city just visit a few stores eat below average quality KFC chips and go back home. Good way to blow 10 bucks since it did manage to wither away about 4 hours of my life.

I've started reading Manga, Japaneses comics that have been translated into English with the correct term being fan scan-lated or something like that. I've picked up Rosario Vampire, typical genres that I would watch had it been an Anime. I don't really know what it is but there's something that uneases me when I read Manga, apart from this indescribable feeling reading Manga is a good way to pass time. (It's good to have a Manga version of myself as a friend cause I'm able to leech off him; Me=Anime Otaku) Manga is also brilliant to download when you're internet is capped which was the case yesterday.
(Uncapped today ^^b Thank you Optus!)

That's all i got for now, remember don't make scenes, you don't have ADD so don't act like it =).

Laters,
Tay

Current Song: Lonesome Traveler - Nakahara Mai

Current happenings = Nothing

2007-11-27T16:04:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Uchuu ni Saku - Komine Lisa

How are we all today? I'm pretty OK I suppose. It's been what? 3 days since my last post, yeah awhile (not really!). I've got various stuff I might or might not talk about today lets start off easy. Next year our year level at school will finally be allowed access to a shopping center sitting across the road from our school, would it be right to call it a reward for making it this far or should be better be known as a privilege? Whatever the case I'm willing to bet that our class (yr 12's of 2008) will do something stupid to get us barred from the Square. Highly unlikely but our year level is pretty messed up (me included in some way =P). I'm not trying to target people with this remark but why do people create senseless destruction to what already is a dark hole in this Earth? You get something out of it? You look more hard? Maybe, who cares...

On the other matters. Posts from various other bloggers in my 'circle' (I'm not announcing ownership or anything I just don't know how else to put it) have raised some fairly interesting points one of which I'll probably be going into a bit of detail today in my post. That one is the point about being yourself and being so called 'unfaithful' to yourself just to have a place in society where you are accepted. I have absolutely no clue as to if I am/have being/been true to myself as to not just change my interests just to fit in with my current society; school. I'll have to say I'm pretty out there. I'm what the Japanese might call an Otaku; a person obsessed with video gaming, anime, manga or their adult counter-parts to some extent. In my case, I could otherwise be known as an Anime Otaku for now, I say for now as I'm not sure about the future, my interests may or may not turn to Hentai (Adult Anime counter-part).

Forgive me, I've just encountered a mental blank in midst of my post.

Anyway after a few minutes thought, I'll continue =P. Some of that stuff I've just written is quite personal, another thing you might not know about me is that I have dolls, yes dolls. Dolls maybe be a degrading word for them, maybe figurines is more suitable. Anyway I have figurines of Anime characters which do cost quite a lot and do nothing. I guess this further pushes my Otaku-ness although figurine collecting can be considered a hobby. I was originally going to post links to various pictures of what my figurines look like but for one; I'm too lazy and two; it's a tad embarrassing.

You may be asking why you mention some of the content found in this post. I write this because it's me, as the topic being 'being true to yourself' (i hope i didn't misunderstand the posts of the other people of my circle cause if i did then... FKKKK!).

OK, from here on till the end, the post is going to lighten up a bit I believe as that topic was quite a serious topic for me to cover even though it might not be the case for you readers =P)

Trivial matters like the happenings of the past few days, hrm, not much really. I went to the local asian gathering place of choice yesterday with a couple of mates. Much fun had except I really need to learn how to hold a steering wheel, my hand really hurts after the punishment it took due to my inexperience in holding a steering wheel yesterday. Anything happening over the next few hours/days? Nope, nothing just relaxing enjoying life as an Otaku; watching Anime
(NO NOT HENTAI, OK? NO!).

Che i've run outa things to add. Forgive poor grammar/language structure/vocabulary etc.

Laters

Current song: Disarm Dreamer - Aki Misato

grammar R whor3s

2007-11-25T00:36:00.000-08:00

current song Synchronicity Yui Makino hi everyone how is it going im pretty good although i have a feeling that this upcoming post isnt going to be read by many people cause guess what no grammer argh im so tempted to use a fullstop just there but i wont ahh my god this is harder than i predicted hehe today was a good day i suppose although getting to sleep was a bit painful took like 3 hours to fall asleep i went to bed at like 10pm and only managed to lose myself at about 1am amazing cause at about 10pm i was tired as hell but going towards 11pm i was fully awaken and full of energy soooo weird anyway about today not much happened owned vega a couple of times with ken thats always fun to do i have a save state at vega level 7 just so i can own him when i feel like it ive been reading the other blogs in the blog circle that i have become apart of sorry to intrude well i guess ive been accepted as you people have started putting links to my blog on your blog so yeah anyway ive been reading their blogs and they are posting their top 5 console games i could probably do that as well but the only thing ive really been playing the last 2 years is warcraft3 with the occasional rpg here and there star ocean 3 for example which is a favorite if i do write my top 5 games i wont do it in this post as i believe you readers can only really understand that stuff if i paragraph it and grammer it and stuff wow im so tempted to just put fullstop just then i think ill make this post short as this is killing me to write im such a grammar whore =) what else can i write about erm ill be finalizing my saturday school lote tomorrow i reckon go to school get stamp pay 70 bucks at post office and off to glen i go school will be held at brentwood secondary college ive never heard if that place in my life i better look it up hope its easy to travel to and from my home i think ill end this post here im sorry this was so short and i guess sorry and i dont really expect anybody to read this particular post yeah anyway laters current song JOINT Kawada Mami the song names and artists have capitals and stuff cause i copied and pasted straight from my song list so dont get any ideas anyway laters oh and maybe if im up to it ill rewrite this post later on making it legible but for now this is what you guys get =) cyahz

Laspes in time...

2007-11-23T23:27:00.000-08:00

Current Song: NONE (Hard to believe eh?)

Its (it has) been quite a period between this post and my last post. I just don't know where the time goes. I'll try to make this post extra long to make up for it. I have no clue what to talk about as I have a decent amount of crap to cover. I guess I'll start off with Anime progression. Downloaded once again another series and completed it in the odd 2 days. 12 episodes worth so yeah it was pretty decent. The Anime was very enjoyable I'll name it if I get a request from comments or the tagboard or whatever. Anyway who the hell is unkown? Whoever you are, you're not even spelling your name correctly I think unless your parents were idiots (no offense) and decided to call you Unkown, "Hey Unkown, have you seen the TV remote?"... I don't fucking think so. Back on the topic of Anime, it's such a pleasant thing; Anime. (how random of me)

I'm going to go through my last 2 days in a non-chronological order so forgive me if my wall of text becomes slightly confusing. Today I went shopping at Eastland I think it's called. Eastland is pretty epic, I bought shoes, a pair of school shoes and a pair of casual shoes. Since when were shoes so expensive? Costs exceeded $250 for 2 pairs of shoes. Oath! Well I guess I should start buying higher quality shoes as my feet have stopped growing so the shoes I wear now should last quite awhile.

Going further back in time, Thursday night or Friday morning was quite pleasant, (I'm happy at very simple things trust me) I slept the whole night through without having to wake up in the middle of the night to turn off my media bot (thats what i'll be calling my Ipod from now on for future reference) as my headphones or in-ears fell out during the night. Although my Media bot was on for the whole night I slept well, what made the day even better was I woke up at 7am (dam body clock, keeps telling me I have school. FUCK OFF NO MORE SCHOOL FOR 2 MONTHS!!) and watched a few episodes of Anime on my Media bot, I for some reason really enjoy watching Anime in the morning, it's a very pleasant thing to wake up to.

Friday night or this morning proved to be quite a horror. Just some background information to make the following a tad bit easier to understand. I believe in 4 states of mind or consciousness or whatever you wanna call it.
1.Wide awake (my current state as i write this post)
2.Tired, fatigued and not fully awake
3.Half asleep, your mind is slightly blurry but you're falling asleep
4.Deep sleep; your fully asleep and can enter dreams etc.

Anyway this morning at around 3am I moved from state 4 to state 2 as i usually do as the music begins to distract my sleep rather than help. Instead of turning it off and going back to sleep I choose to continue to listen which brought me to a state somewhere between 1 and 2 which caused me unable to fall asleep again as I was not tired. As a result I stayed up for around 3 hours listening to music before giving up, turning off my media bot and finally accomplishing sleep. I managed to get about 2 hours in before waking up to the new day. I'm quite tired now due to a decent dose of sleep deprivation.

Today I intended to go to LAN (computer network gaming place-a-ma-jig) but since a few of my mates decided not to go, I choose to follow suit (not much of a leader am i =P?) and went shoe shopping instead.

Time for one of those oh-so-famous tangents of mine =). I'm going to talk about head phones now. I use in-ear head phones, they deprived me of $95 (ripoff) but the sound quality is brilliant (considering my last pair were the Ipod headphones =P). My in-ears came with a little addition which allowed for more stability which I guess makes up for the rather outrageous cost of it. I recommend in-ears to everyone, I'm not saying the cookie-cutter head/ear phones are bad, I just believe that in-ears are superior and because music is quite a big part of my life (listening to it, not playing) I would gladly pay $200+ for top of the line in-ear head phones with very little hesitation. I've heard that high end in-ears are only good for classical music though, but meh who cares? Better quality music is better quality music whichever way you look at it.

Hrm... I thought I'd have more to say than this... I guess I don't. I did write a fair bit didn't I?
Anyway in retaliation to a post one of my friends made who's name shall be changed to Fag for the time being. My next post will contain absolutely NO grammar what so ever. No fullstops, no commas, no paragraphing, nothing. I know thats going a bit far but I guess it'll be fun to write and hell to read. This is how Tay deals with fags =).

*cough* Shaun, dick head *cough*

Sorry about that, had something in my throat.

Laters

Current Song: The Legend of Ashitaka - Joe Hisaishi

P.S; most of my song collection comes from Anime and you can probably find most if not all the music I enjoy my days to at Gendou.com (not trying to advertise or anything etc. Hope I don't get banned.) If you cannot find a song that I have listed on my blog @ Gendou.com then shoot me a comment and I'll email it to ya if you wish.

just when everything was going well...

2007-11-22T01:25:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Last regrets -2006 memorial mix- - Ayana

Only yesterday did I start thinking about what I wanted in the coming days/months/year. What I wanted was to have a good year, share classes with good mates and try and enjoy the last year (considering I don't fail) of my high school life to its fullest. I'll have to say, it sucks to dream doesn't it? Too sum things up I have two choices, do Saturday school classes or pick up a subject at school that I'm NOT keen on. Either way I look at it, my year won't be as enjoyable as I would have expected.

The problem with selecting a new subject at school is that there is absolutely NOTHING that I want to do. I wouldn't mind picking up Chemistry but given the fact I didn't complete units 1+2, which are prerequisites to doing units 3+4; picking up would be extremely hard to impossible. Apart from Chemistry, any subject that I would do would be against my will.

The second choice is doing LOTE at Saturday school, this means more frees during Monday to Friday but sacrificing my Saturday. This means I'll need to bed early every night with Saturday being an exception. This option really screws up how much free time I have, but then again thats not important cause I really need to harden the fuck up this year (or buckle down, whatever sounds better).

I don't know why I'm writing about this, maybe it's because this is what consumes my mind for now and writing about it, I am surprised to admit; helps me clearly see what I should do. For now I'm keen on learning LOTE at Saturday school. This process will no doubt be tedious and costly but what other choice do I have? I'm really not keen on doing something like history or literature or geography.

I don't even know why I'm asking questions to the readers. =/

On a lighter note, I think I've just come across a new Favorite Anime. It's still on going but damn is it good. I guess I'm just a sucker for this kind of show. It makes me feel so ... damn... these is one of those times when my English is to crap to explain how I feel again. This feeling though, it's nice in a weird depressing way I guess.

Anyway thats all I have to say for now, thanks for helping me clear my thoughts Blogspot.

Laters

Current Song: Hikari - Yui Horie

Konichiwa minna-san (Hi everybody)

2007-11-20T20:55:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Butterfly - Back-On

Time to appear before the masses. Hey everyone I'm Tay and I'm a blogaholic. (that sounded gay and cheesy to me.) Yeah I didn't post yesterday, basically I was too lazy, but hey, i get to waste 2-4 lines of my 'wall of writing' giving absurd and stupid reasons/excuses to why I didn't blog yesterday. For some one reason or another, I appear to feel rather drained these days, maybe it's the heat, maybe it's my fat boy lifestyle, probably lack of sleep.

As I mentioned earlier this week, I was downloading a series of Anime, it took about two weeks and I finished watching it today, I'm quite pleased with the 'entertainment:time it took' ratio. This Anime series that I just downloaded and 'marathon'ed'(marathon might be exaggerated as 9 hours of screen time over 3 days isn't that much) was quite strange, for that sole reason will remain nameless on my blog. I thoroughly enjoyed it however the ending was unexpected and to a further extent, disappointing. Maybe disappointing may not be the sufficient word to describe my thoughts on the ending. Suffice to say, the ending seemed slightly rushed and sloppy to me.

Yes, I am torrenting another Anime which as I am writing this message, is approximately 77.1% complete with an estimated eight hours and seventeen minutes and a couple of seconds remaining. Obviously these counters are always inaccurate as they are solely dependent on the amount of downloads in KB's you're getting per second. I'm pretty sure this Anime (the one being downloaded right now) won't be as weird as the one I just watched. Not to say weird is bad, this is just one of those situations where my English isn't strong enough to explain how I feel without making sentences that look awkward and strange and are hard to read ETC.

I'm just going to randomly tangent and talk about something else now; just a heads up.

One thing that I take for granted and I know I take for granted are Fan-sub groups, those of you who don't know what a Fan-sub group is, they are just groups of people who subtitle media (usually video) that's in another language, making it available to people who aren't cool enough to know that particular language (I'm referring to myself and my inability to converse in Japanese). Anyway these Fan-subbers do this for absolutely nothing, they do it for free. No reward, the only reward I can see is praise (did i spell this wrong, spell check isn't showing up) and applaud from the public which in my eyes doesn't seem like much, regardless these people do it anyway. Henceforth, I'd like to dedicate the rest of my blog post to various fan subbing groups such as; Eclipse, GG, m.3.3.w, Shinsen, Ayu, Ayako, YaMom and the list goes on for quite awhile. These people are legends in my eyes and will be for decades to come i reckon.

Tay <- Signing out, Bai! ._.

Current Song: «Ï«ä«ÆªÎª´ªÈª¯£¡ - Kotoko

(my computer doesn't support Japanese/Chinese characters, for that reason I and you see a lot of nonsensical crap in the song title.)

Titleless Posts ftw

2007-11-19T03:35:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Hitotoshite Jiku ga Bureteiru - Kenji Ohtsuki

Well, my blog has finally gotten out. At this point, time is the only factor left determining how much of the populace that knows me accidentally come across my blog. I guess I wanted it this way? I did choose to write a blog, if i desired privacy a diary would have been better suited. Just a heads up for those who do read this, please don't ask questions. I write what I write and thats it, I just don't think it is necessary that I answer questions which originate from this blog. Honestly, I don't think it's that great of a deal, just don't be too nosy.

Today brought upon the scorcher that I dreaded so bad yesterday. To be frank, it wasn't that hot. I mean yes it was hot but it was easily bearable. Just made sure I kept my levels of fluid relatively high and it was smooth sailing. I heard tomorrows going to be a scorcher as well, same old; bring it on ;D. I wonder what I'd be like to live in cold environments where snow and ice arrive yearly instead of sweltering heat that we get down here in the southern hemisphere.

Crap, my eyes are weird right now, can't see properly, might need glasses. Maybe it's just lack of sleep, anyhow, I ought a wrap this up quickly before my brain starts spinning in circles. Not many event flags being triggered at my location (reference to RPG's) so I probably won't be able concoct superbly interesting reading material until at least Thursday which is as I've said before; course confirmation day (for me anyway). Lets just hope it's not hazardous to leave my home that day.

Progressions in Anime... Hrm well, I finished torrenting an anime just this morning which I had pended for about 2 weeks now. 24 episodes worth and I've watched about 12 already. Shit... about a weeks of download gone in like what? less than 12 hours? How am I going to survive this holiday??? =(

Thats that for today, who knows I might not post tomorrow as I won't have too much to say. If i don't write tomorrow then I apologize in advance... "Hey, wait a sec, why am I saying sorry?!?"
"Screw you all!" =)

Mata Ne?

Current Song: Doubt & Trust - Access

2007-11-17T23:15:00.001-08:00

ARGH, If you can tell me a square where I can click without taking a risk then I will love you forever. Minesweepers is so lame.

Current Song: Hikari Sasuhou - Back On (Back-On ftw :D)

I don't know the word to express how bored I am currently, the only thing that relieves me slightly of this "past the regular level of boredom" boredom is blogging for now. Absolutely interested in nothing right now. Do you see? I started playing Minesweeper and even that game is annoying now, BTW that window up there is still open and live if you wanna help me out =). Anytime now though, I'm just gonna lose it and click a random square only to reveal that my Smiley face will express death which will send me down in a spiral of anger and depression over that smart ass of a game.... Knew it, I died, disregard most of the last paragraph please.

According to sources, tomorrow 19/11 will bring upon a 37C degree day, I don't know about you readers but for me, that means FREAKING HOT, if I go outside I'm gonna be a crisp Asian. Or something like that. Regardless of heat, my days won't change too much. I might become a bit more restless and play PS2 more than my computer (PS2>Computer comfort wise) cause my computer chair is cheap, I think it was picked up on trash collection week or something when somebody threw it out. Still, free stuff is free stuff =P (cheapness FTW).

God this holiday is going to be the worse ever unless I pick up a few more hobbies or the liking. Maybe I should pick up alcohol, never know, might be a good time passer. I haven't touch the intoxicating stuff since I was really young, half a can and I was yelling absurd comments providing cheap and fulfilling entertainment for my family. In a way, I've been scared of that stuff ever since, not because I'm scared of what might become of me but rather the taste, not a fan of beer/alcohol/wine/etc. much.

There's this typical Anime I've been watching, goes by the name: Goshuushou-sama Ninomiya-Kun. Typical school-life, harem, ecchi, romantic-comedy. It's refreshing to watch the typical stuff every now and then, as they keep the genres known and square cut to what they are. Not going to find hachi anytime soon or pararem. Hehe, wtf do I know, don't go researching this and trying to prove me wrong cause I won't care and you just wasted your time. No seriously if you do intend to prove me wrong then GTFO!

Substantial enough to call it a post =).
Maybe I'll think about something interesting to write about in my next post like band-aids+body hair (*RIP* AHH! FUCK, that hurt!).

Hehe, laters

Current Song: Oboetete Ii Yo - Kotoko

Still going strong =)

2007-11-17T17:07:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Chain - Back-On

How's everybody? I hope you slept well :P. Another day filled with uneventfulness, more computer games, more Anime, more PS2. Actually I've been playing a lot of Armored Core recently which is a robot or mecha game where you customize your bot with various weapons and all your body parts are changeable, getting over the learning curb (learning how to control your robot) is kinda difficult but once you get the hang of it, fun starts flowing in bundles. That said i'm in a point in the game where the only thing I can do to progress is to complete a mission, fail = game over and the game has given me an automated 19% chance of success. I mean WTF? how good do you have to be to beat this game.

I haven't gone through much thought since my last post so my material is quite low for this post =(.

I'll just say something completely random =). Last week I think it was around Sunday I came down with a sickness; sore throat or something like that and bought soothers to help, I buy them liquid centers cause they're cool. Anyway I'm not sick anymore but I've still got a bundle of soothers and sometimes i just eat them for the feeling they give (they don't taste all that great but they aren't exactly horrible). How should I explain this feeling... A cool feeling in the throat? Sounds about right, after having a soother, take a glass of cool/cold/room temperature water, and feels weird in a good way. You can obtain the same effect with mints i think.

hehe, how random was that =).

I think i should really plan these posts from here on out as to avoid posting miniature posts and repeating myself ETC. Yeah sounds like a good idea.

Anyway Sorry short post =P.
Bye
Current Song: Day-break - Kaori

Shortest period of time between a post =(

2007-11-16T23:58:00.001-08:00

Current Song: Dog Fight - Move

Sorry if you think I'm posting too frequently but I've just had a shower (irrelevant i know!) and been thinking about stuff and I thought I'd post again before my brain refuses to keep this information fresh in my brain. That and of course, I'm bored like always.

I know this isn't a discussion of sorts but I'll hand you readers a question, do you ever have trouble sleeping at night? If this proves to be the case for you, then i believe that you're similar to me or I'm similar to you (whoever's more significant, who cares) and I've come to the conclusion that your likely a deep thinker, vivid amounts of thoughts visualize in my mind when I sit around and do nothing but think to myself, mostly happens in bed when I'm futilely trying to fall asleep (music helps to minimize this trauma, THANK GOD FOR HOLIDAYS =).

Thoughts usually just keep flowing, I'll give you a sh!tty example of this; (i don't know what tense these next few sentences should be in so bear with me) I think about my homework, then i think about my pen then think about pen spinning then think about that time when i saw elite pen spinning on YouTube then I start thinking about my computer which is the access point of YouTube and then I think about Anime and then my thought dwells on that for awhile before tangent'ing in another direction again.

This keeps on going on until I kind of force myself (when trying to subdue myself to sleep) to think of the white ceiling above me, in my head saying "white ceiling boring" countless amounts of times slowly becoming sleepier then finally losing consciousness.

This leads me back to my random point about people, based on a lamely conducted over a long period of time research project I've been doing; (ever so poorly) Your either an airhead or your a deep thinker, symptoms of an airhead are lack of trouble sleeping (awkward sentence =P) while deep thinkers are the complete opposite, they go through hell trying to lose consciousness in a way that won't damage their brains (suffocation comes to mind).

I know of one airhead =P sorry, i think you know who you are (no offense intended whatsoever, your so cool! Seriously, no jokes here.), the rest the populace that has been researched (keep in mind i don't vigorously go around demanding to know if people have trouble entering the dream world at night) are all deep thinkers. I know, correct terms probably exist for this diagnosis and proper research has probably been done on this topic but i thought this would be fairly interesting so i decided to write about it.

Hope you enjoyed this fairly unintellectual post regarding sleeping and stuff.

Bye again.

Current Song: Romancing Train - Move

Initial... D...D...Deee!

2007-11-16T21:57:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Euphoric Field - Tenmon feat. Elisa (not J-music but from Anime)

Negative twenty and plus three hours brings me to the main content of post number 8. How are ya? Bad question (cause you must be stupid to be reading my blog, hehe stupid). 14 bucks was drained from the arcade and another 6 or so was wasted on toilet fodder (does that make sense? 'toilet fodder'). I've found a new and extremely expensive interest in Initial D, losing is a big part of it but I hope to get better with time as I'm expecting to go play initial D often, a game after school every now and then won't hurt my wallet much will it? I hope to get good at Initial D =). DDR also kindles my interest but I'll learn that at home if and when I get a dance mat for computer.

Bubble cup is good, I'm probably going to try all the (insert flavor) Green Tea. So far I've tried Plain, Lemon, Lychee and Green apple so far and i think Green apple is a favorite slightly (thanks to my buddy for recommending it). I have all my Bubble cup with fruit jelly, I can't be arsed trying the other extras as they might not be as good and so fourth, regardless bubble cup is elite, I'm disappointed I didn't try it earlier. Everything cost money doesn't it, ehh, that's life might as well buckle down and go with the 'flow' so to speak.

I plan to publicize this blog today, so I might as well say something to the readers, "HEY PEOPLE, IF YOU READ THIS AND INSULT ME, BETTER WATCH OUT FOR YOUR FAMILY AND PETS CAUSE I'LL BE COMING FOR THEM" There done, moving on.

Ah man, I can't get over how kinda good in a weird way it felt to clear corners well in Initial D, but then wall riding in the next corner really tears your esteem apart doesn't it? For those who know stuff about cares out their, I got a Subaru Impreza, yes a very cookie cutter car. I'm probably going to go to the arcade by myself and be a loner and get points just so I can have the upper hand to beat my friends xD. I'm sad ain't i? Nah, I don't think i would do that, it's more fun owning friends on a level playing field. Remember that people don't own people just because you can, although you get a warm fuzzy feeling when you completely own somebody at something, the person who's reciprocating the ownage won't be enjoying themselves too much. I mean if you hate the person then by all means but don't go doing that too your mates =P.

Too lazy to write anymore! Sorry, short post... STFU don't insult me, GO DIE!

Mata ne?

Current song: You are the one! - Takahashi Youko

I'm just gonna edit this post as I don't have enough content for another post, I just got my 'rats-tail' cut off, woo i look less gangster now and can fit in with the many gangster Asians that hang out at my local Asian gathering place.

hehe, just needed to say that.
Laters

Current Song: Last Regrets - Key & Ayana

QUICK HELP ME THINK OF A TITLE =.=

2007-11-16T14:05:00.000-08:00

Current Song: \"Libera Me\" From Hell - Iwasaki Taku

You know an Anime is a masterpiece when it almost makes you cry. Well maybe I don't feel this much because I don't watch much of the kinds of Anime that make me cry but, wow. Only on two occasions has an Anime almost made me cry, and today was the second. The first time I almost cried when watching Anime was near the beginning of my strange career if you could call my Anime abusing that. That time, it was Kanon, this time it's Clannad both by the same makers which I don't think is a coincidence. When i say masterpiece I really mean it as I will not call many Animes a masterpiece, I think the reason why I almost cry is because the makers develop characters so damned well, I mean if not for getting to know the characters, why would I feel for them and almost cry. Hehe this is fairly embarrassing, crying... i mean ALMOST crying when watching something.

I don't know if some of you remember or lived in my generation but I lived in a generation where at a point in time, Poke'mon was extremely popular and there was a cartoon series for it. I remember an episode where people said that they cried but I don't think i even felt remotely sad, i think the episode was 'Bye Bye Butterfree' or something like that. Although my thoughts and analysis skills weren't what they are today I'd think they are pretty similar cause I don't think I've changed much at all except in prep i remember being pretty hardcore, swearing and stuff but then in grade one i kinda changed and have been that way ever since. (WHAT? Grade 2's were fkn scary ok?)

If only on-going Anime series would release more than one measly episode per week, I suppose this is a marketing tactic as releasing every single episode in a shorter period of time wouldn't give as much of a response. I guess people like me need time to consolidate thoughts on the particular show (whether it be Anime or drama or w/e) because some Anime do leave you with a lot to think about one in particular that immediately jumps to mind would be Mushi-Shi (Pretty elite Anime by the way, I recommend it if you're bored.)

Lately i've been playing my SNES emulator, i've mostly been playing a game called Super Street Fighter; The new challengers. Yeah it's from the famous street fighter franchise and i'm getting pretty good at it =). I play Ken, yeah cookie cutter rich American boy Ken Masters with the flaming Shoyruken (i might have misspelt that).

I'm going to the arcade today, WOOOO, i know i mentioned it yesterday as I'm not much of an arcade dweller so this is a pretty rare occurance. Hope i own my friends at whatever I play :P. Hehe i'll probably update this again when i get back with how i went, gonna be a fairly costly day =(.

Jya, Mata ne?

Current song: Shichitenhakki Shijou Shugi - Kotoko

33,32

2007-11-16T03:16:00.000-08:00

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That's the current temperature of my computer cores. When it reaches like 85 or something, my computer is going to blow up and I'm probably gonna be able to claim warranty on it :P. Oh I'm cheap. I realized today that the things I care about, the things I hold close to me are the things I take for granted. Some of the things in my life I am so greatful for.

Current Song: Tears Infection - Kaori

Things I take for granted i guess would be my computer, I don't know if i treat it good or not. But my computer is like my best friend. (in the category of non-living things that is). I'm currently torrenting a batch of songs by Back-On, thats the band i'm most interested in at this very moment... Hehe, it'll change very soon, I'm sure of it. Yay! the download just finished, as i'm writing this post, time to listen to it. I'm such a leecher, i download so much =P. Wow it sounds pretty good so far =). Oh and if your reading this; DO THE FREAKEN POLL! I want feedback =) who doesn't?

Well, after today, I think i'm going to start spreading the link to my blog around, see what people think. I don't really know what to expect, just if your reading this and you laugh at me, get ready cause I'm likely going to stab you with a screw driver gangster Vietnamese style =). Screw driver as my weapon of choice because it's funnier than being stabbed by the knife, thats too normal and happens too much i suppose. Not that being stabbed is a good thing but i WILL stab you with a screw driver if you laugh at this OK? Good, now that thats settled, lets move on.

Today will mark the first time ever that i leave my computer on overnight, lets hope nothing goes wrong and stuff. The reason i leave my computer on overnight is because I have this thing called on-peak and off-peak downloads, oh its such a dodgey piece of crap but meh, i'm used to it.

I have a feeling that i'm posting on this blog WAYY too much, i mean 4 posts in one day? I'm really bored ain't i? Might be going to the local arcade tomorrow with a bunch of mates, thats always fun i suppose. Not something i do very often, maybe i'll get bubble-cup, i love bubble-cup, it's not quite sweet but it's such a good drink maker.

I've been trying to get fit a bit recently, I've been exercising here and there everyday of course, if you do it once a week, you really won't see the results, and yes at times i feel like its a waste of time, but deep down i think i really do want to get stronger and faster and that kinda thing then again who wants to be weak? Nobody wants to be weak, it's not fun being weak =).

Hrm, the paragraphs in this post are slightly smaller than the paragraphs from my other posts, but oh well.

I'm done now, i probably have a lot more to say but I'm slightly tired and don't wanna push my brain too much.

Mata ne?

Current song: DRIVE(首都高 REMIX) - Back-On

3 ftw =)

2007-11-16T00:20:00.000-08:00

Current Song: Chain - Back on ( It's a good song, hehe =).)

Well 3rd post for the day, wow im a post whore. Not very happy about that. How have i spent my afternoon? Well I've spent it dully or mis-spent it as you could suggest. I played some AC-Silent Line, It isn't a bad game, although the controls are awkward and the game is fairly frustrating for those who ain't patient. Heck what do you care =P. Anyway 'Raki Suta' and 'Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei'. Watch them, they are pleasant enough. They are what I would call relaxing no story Animes which don't make you think a lot and give you a couple of laughs on the side. Good stuff.

Haha well, I've run out of stuff to write about again but I won't end this post just yet, it'ld (it would) be too short if I did, so I'll just say random stuff until something interesting to talk about comes to mind =P. I showered just now, i mean i don't know about you but I can't survive without at least one shower a day, seriously. Call me a water waster or whatever, i just want to keep clean and yeah.

If I mentioned this in my last post then Gomenasai (sorry in Japanese). Anyway I've had a thought of restarting WoW, and the reason for that is that time would pass away fast as hell, the downside to this is obviously the cost of a card, and i wouldn't be able to start immediately as a card lasts 60 days and I'd prefer to use the card on the last 60 days of my holiday instead of the first. Another downside to this decision would be that I wouldn't do much study during the holidays, I've kinda said that I want to get my school books early and start making summary books at the advice of a friend. I want to do well next year, seriously =P. Actually a reason I wanna do well is so that I can shove it in someones face =P. Harsh yes, but yeah I really wanna beat this person in life cause I know it's... how you say? Impossible? Yeah this person is that great... Dam them!
Anyway after lots of consideration I've chosen not to restart WoW and just bear the pain that is this 60 day period of nothingness.

Hrm, this post has become fairly substantial, hehe I bet when your reading this you're like "OMG this person sucks at blogging he/she's just saying random sh!t this isn't a blog! You suck" Hehe, I can imagine that. I really doubt anybody gonna read this. I don't really wanna share it with the public that much, so if you do manage to come across this blog and find it intriguing, I'd like you too keep it to yourself, hell i know thats not happening, especially if you know me, I don't want the entire populace that knows of my existence to read this as that would be lame. (no offense to everybody that knows me).

Anyway thats the end of post 3 for the day and post 5 in total.

Laters
Current Song: Hishoku no Sora - Kawada Mami

Posting too much, MUCH? =P

2007-11-15T19:57:00.001-08:00

Current song: Chain - Back On

Wow, i have returned. I have a feeling i'm going to be writing more than two posts a day. Hehe, i've got a lot of venting to do! I can't help it =). Was just playing some warcraft 3 tournament. Let me say this, no matter how good you are, theres always someone better. That statement is so true, I got a score of 1-2 then i gave up, 33% win is quite crap for a tournament. Hehe, I just suck though i guess. Theres somebody I really want to talk to, although I don't have a means of communicating with this person. It's kind of a weird feeling that I don't understand yet.

Theres an Anime called Air Gear, that i'm downloading (it's illegal, so what, shoot me.) and I dunno, i have a feeling that i'm going to read the manga that it derived from. Oh this holiday is going to be fun, I mean i've stooped to the point of posting messages on my own blog. (no offense to bloggers =P). I don't understand how i'm feeling right now, as i write this i feel... exactly... i don't know how i feel but i feel weird, i feel unfulfilled. Why? i don't know. Is this feeling unfulfillment? (<-- how do i spell that?) Anyway, I've kinda given up on using complicated English, as my brain is evaporating every second i attempt to point a remotely long or complicated word into my post. Sorry for those that are reading, it might get boring =).

Music is a big part of my life, I suppose it's a big part of everybody's life. I believe music has even more impact on my life than Anime does. One of my favorite things to do is listen to my treasured Ipod will attempting to fall to sleep. I can't usually do this on School days cause it takes too long and will screw me over due to a heavy amount of missing sleep that my body sorely needs. But seeing as though it's holidays, i practically do it everyday. It's good although i never make it through the night with the music on as i always wake up at like 3am or the liking and have to turn it off to progress any further in the abyss that is my sleep.

The music i listen to, which i may or may not have mentioned here (if i have, my apologies for repeating my self) varies greatly but most of my music derives from Japanese Composers. Thank Japan for who i am now, music, Anime, everything about my life. I learn Japanese at school but I'll have to admit i'm not great at it.

Hrm, i wonder if this post was long. Who cares =)
Laters, I'll most definitely post again today i think =/.

Current song: Hikari Sasuhou - Back On

It begins? yep it does...

2007-11-15T18:14:00.000-08:00

Currently Listening to: Joint - Kawada Mami
I'll do that at the beginning and at the end of every blog post I make, if i remember to that is. Just so I guess whoever reads learns more about me? I mean why else are you reading this? Bored of your own life?...GET A LIFE! Hehe. Nah I'm just kidding you do what your doing and whatever, cause i'll probably never meet any of yous reading this in my current lifetime.

Well I've finally handed my 2nd hand school books into school, now that thats over theres really nothing left until summer school starts which is... AGES... Well there is course confirmation interview. 2 people I know/am chums with are in a similar time slot to me. So I guess it'll be fun... I hope I get my selected subjects seeing as though I totally flunked out on the end of year exams. Yes I got totally... how do i say this... Owned in the arse? Yeah that sounds about right.

I've had thoughts of relighting an old flame, I want to play world of Warcraft again. Basically because I've a lot of free time hands and WoW will help me rid myself of it. I was pretty good at WoW when i played if i don't say so myself =P. I'll probably just stick to warcraft 3 for now (i love my Blizzard Entertainment games). I'll say this again i think i'm pretty good at warcraft 3. Although to get good at it, like sport or anything else you need to commit a lot of hours which I just don't want to. For now i just play for fun and that suits me just fine.

I heard this philosophical saying just a few days ago so i thought I'd mention it here. It was from some really pro guy that gave elite speeches and he had cancer or something and was dying and this was his last going away seminar or something like that. Anyway it goes something like this; When you hit huge walls in life, whether its passing a test, or getting money for that Anime figurine that you desperately want. These walls, these behemoths aren't there to stop you. They are there to show and differentiate the people who just want it, and the people who will go to extraordinary lengths to obtain it. Anyway, thats that. I kinda thought that was cool is all.

It's a short post but oh well, wtf are you going to do about it? I've run out of things to say. It can't be helped =(.

Anyways laters.

Currently Listening to Agony - Kotoko

PS. Songs will always be listed as [Song Title] - [Artist]

Last Supper? Nah as if~

2007-11-15T01:14:00.000-08:00

Well, i've managed to find myself back here. I've even put Blogspot into the select amount of bookmarked websites that I visit at various intervals. I have a feeling that I'll actually follow through this year when I say that I'm going to try as hard as I can. Cut back on Anime, games and every other leisurely pastime that I indulge in.

I am an avid Computer game player. The thing about computer games i suppose that i like the most is the ability to work together with your friends. A fine example would be a team-game of Warcraft3, where you and your friend work together to dominate the team on the other end of whats called the 'fog of war'. I guess this team work derives from sport but, although I did enjoy sport when I played isn't the same as computer games because A)You almost NEVER get hurt :P and B)in computer games there isn't a skill or capacity limit so to speak. Theres not much of a better way I can explain that. Maybe there is... hrm... for example (this probably won't make a lot of sense to you but here goes nothing.) a game of soccer, or any other sport for that matter where you have to train countless hours to get that tiny bit better while in a computer game learning curve comes at a more accelerated rate? Damn, I've just done a killer @ confusing myself =(. I guess what i'm trying to say is that the practice you do in a computer game is more rewarding based on the amount of time you spend. No i'm not talking about huge pay checks and stuff like that as only elites can obtain such skill in anything whether it be sport or gaming. I suppose it's easier to learn a computer game? rather than a sport? Maybe thats because theres fewer restrictions (tennis played at tennis court, soccer played at soccer field etc.) I guess, another point for this argument that i'm trying to justify with myself is that i guess different people have different tastes. It all comes down to that really... Doesn't it?

Man this is so fun for me... I kinda hope somebody reads this now =P as to not just waste my effort. Somebody i know of course, no offense to the public if your reading this.

Well i've hit a mental blank i guess i'll end this post here.

Jya Mata ne?

How to pass my days away...

2007-11-14T21:33:00.000-08:00

Nobody is probably going to read this because most likely I'm not going to tell anybody about this blog, I'm just writing this to consolidate my thoughts and feelings and to exhaust some of the time that I have gotten (two and a half months of holidays... Wtf much?).

I don't know how blogs work, it like some kind of internet diary? I suppose its personal. I'm going to try use proper English and use as much of my word vocab as I can in an attempt to make me ever so slightly smarter or better at English cause, god knows, I suck at English ;). Today I was suppose go to school in a fruitless attempt to sell my 2nd hand school books. But to no avail as Mrs.Mitchell wasn't around to collect them or whatever. So I'll go tomorrow and try again I suppose. Good waste of a few hours of this holiday. You can probably tell I'm a pessimistic dull sack of life thats good for practically nothing. (Hehe I'm sad, I insult myself (-_-).)

I got a haircut yesterday and although I didn't request it, I was left with a rats tail to the left of my head. Yes it looks quite odd and generated quite a bit of attention @ school today. I'm not an attention person, I suppose I'm somebody who cracks under pressure a lot. On the other hand I look slightly gangster now and honestly I don't mind looking gangster-like although I far from act like one.

To jump on a random tangent which I think I'll find myself doing a lot; I think I have an infatuation with someone. I'm nicer to this person than I think I should be and I think about this person a lot. Now that I got that off my chest I don't feel much better.

Tangenting again (I know thats not a word :D). I've been watching horrendous amounts of anime. OK, that's an exaggeration but I have been burning though a lot of Anime these days, Anime is kinda the thing I live for right now, without Anime... I dunno maybe I'll go crazy. I started watching Anime at the point of obsession in like.. April? maybe? When I got my new Ipod Video. To be honest I've gotten a lot of new stuff this year (got new computer like last week) and from my parents. They have high expectations of me to do well in school. I don't know if I'll be able to live up to such high expectations. Although I can't see myself dropping out of school, it's hard to see me studying every night in an attempt to get an elite enter score for school. Another reason for this is I have ABSOLUTELY no clue what I want in the future. I guess for I just want an easy good salary job (hehe, who doesn't?). I'm guessing to obtain that i'll really have to buckle down and get as high grades as I can. I feel motivated now but when I start school again in February I will probably feel the complete opposite.

Anime is so good, I used to watch Drama, like OTH and Smallville but now I watch almost nothing but Anime. ( I watch House, Prison Break and Supernatural.) I guess I do watch a bit of American TV still but compared to Anime I'd say it's like 1/10 or 1/12 maybe 1/15 of my overall stuff watching time if I could call it that. =)

I think I've written too much. Anyway maybe I'll never return to this again maybe I will. I don't know. Well if your reading this sorry for any grammar screw-ups and such.

Mata Ne? (Japanese for "Cya again yeah?")